i realized that that i've been too busy with school and a whole lot of other activities to be committed to my dA account. so i've decided that i'm not going to update my page regularly. i'll probably have more chances this summer, but i'm not sure because i'm thinking about getting a summer job. since i'm so busy with homework and such, i've had no time to get around writing or drawing. i figured, "i'm done with True Confessions." I honestly can't finish the last freaking chapter, so i've decided to fuck it over. make up your own ending or whatever.

i'm gonna try drawing a lot more this summer, especially since i applied for a Draw/Paint/Design class for next school year. i actually have some ideas to draw, since i've been pretty obsessed with Rock Band (which by the way, is a ridiculously awesome game), and i've started drawing random characters with band instruments. the drum one is going to be a bitch though. but yeah i've also been busy playing real guitar, and i'm really trying hard to write some songs/lyrics. not very successful so far. oh, some of the "brothers" in my youth group decided to bring me into their band, so technically i'm in a band now. i may be busy with that too.

Also, for next school year, i'll be taking two Advanced Placement classes, AP Biology and AP Human Geography, as well as Pre-Calculus/Trigonometry. i've figured out that i'll be insanely busy next year; so busy that i'm considering dropping my piano lessons when school starts back up. after about eight years...

I'm pretty sure you're sick of reading my lame excuses for not doing anything dA related, so... "Diary Time"

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Well, I've been in a youth group, Youth For Christ, since October 2008. I've had the pleasure of being in the Music Ministry for the camp in May, playing guitar. It was freaking awesome, and was one of the best camps we've had. We're also going to have a nationwide conference in Chicago at the end of July, and it'll be my first conference. BUT I NEED MONEYS

I also got the new Green Day album, 21st Century Breakdown, on the day it came out (that was also the weekend of the camp mentioned above). It sounded more like classic rock than punk rock at first, but it's actually a really awesome album. The songs are really epic, and three of them are going to be up for download on Rock Band really soon!! So excited. Also, the music video for "21 Guns" is gonna be out on the 21st (tomorrow), so also excited. I love Green Day.

so yeah, that's all for now. i'll upload whenever i feel like it.
btw, if you have an Xbox Live Gamertag, you should play me in Halo 3 or Rock Band 2. hit me up on my brother's Gamertag, Twiztid Pinoy.

laters.
- Bern.

PS: thanks to all those that faved my works or watched me. i'd get back to all of you guys, but the message box is slowly piling up... again, thanks.

so yeah. since not that many people have watched me at i've decided to update here instead.

first off, let's start with current events. not the ones in the newspaper, the one's about me, and life. here we go.\

so for sophomore students in Washington state high schools, we're taking a "little" test called the Washington State Assessment of Learning, aka the WASL. which is a bitch. it's a standardized test. and this week we're doing the reading and writing part. it's easy, but it's so damn time consuming. i don't like it, and i don't know a single washington state student that likes it.

other stuff going on in life. well. we have this project where i have to research about a health/science related job, and perform a job shadow. i picked orthodontist, and i had my job shadow, which went off pretty good. yay!

more stuff... well, i'm still playing guitar. i'm currently learning pieces of Canon Rock by JerryC (you should youtube it for the beastly shredding) and i can do the chorus. and i pretty much learned the My Chemical Romance cover of Desolation Row (originally by Bob Dylan) by ear. They did it for the Watchmen movie (which i have not seen yet, i want to). and yeah Xbox 360 achievements waste my time.

oh and i have a slight problem in my love life. ahahahahaha. lulz anyway so i like this girl (duh) and it just so happens she's like one of my best friends. the thing is i don't want to tell her, and anyways, i don't make it obvious that i like her. so yeah. there's my love life for now.

anyway. here are my plans for stuff that i'm probably not going to update for a while.

I have not forgotten about True Confessions. I plan to finish it (even though i really don't want to at all), and i'll (hopefully) post it soon. then I plan to re-upload the chapters on my new account, but here's a catch: i'm pretty much rewriting the whole thing, so i can make it better, and fix things i didn't like from the original.

so if i haven't uploaded any of this by summer, then i have officially left dA (unless otherwise noted).

FUCKING SPOILER ALERT.
DO NOT READ IF YOU HATE SPOILERS OR DEAD PEOPLE.
however if you want another reason to hate him, carry on.




SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS
fucking kishimoto. you've almost made me despise you before. i've tried so hard to keep my hopes up for you. now i have a valid reason to hate you. please say it ain't so. she's not dead. she better not be fucking dead. yes she did tell him that she loved him, but did she have to say it just before she died? come on. really what the fuck. now i really don't want to finish my lame story, now that she's fucking dead. gad.

spoilers end here.

oh by the way, you should re-watch me at for newer stuff. if i get around to newer stuff...

now that i'm on winter break, i finally have free time. the last few weeks were pretty messed up (in terms of school), since i had a group project worth 300 points in each class (that's 900 points total) due a couple weeks ago. it's been stressing me out, and now that it's over with, i'm content. i got a freakin B- on it. whatever.
anyway, if you do still pay attention to me, and have not given up hope, then i'll be pleased to inform you that i'm moving. no not away from my home, from my dA page here. i am disliking this username (it was a stupid idea, really, who's heard of a paranoid demon? wtf), and i realized my page is full of random crap. anyway, so i've made a new account at ThisIsCaboose so if you really do watch me, you'd watch that username since it is also me. also i'll be uploading my newer stuff, and re-uploading various things from here over at that page.

happy holidays. happy new year.
-Brendell (ThisIsCaboose)


EDIT: crap. finals next week, so yeah, absolutely no time to do shit. by the way, i'll still be checking this page from time to time, but i'm not uploading new stuff here. meh. laterz.

shit. it's been 4 months since the last fucking update. wow. i really suck right now. i have ideas, but i don't have the time to put it down on paper (or type it), but i have ideas. if you still pay attention to me, just know that i'm almost done with Confessions (but not that it matters), and honestly, i'm not happy with it. i just have no motivation to finish it, and while i still have ideas to continue it (which i might), the final itty bitty part is just killing me. i just can't find time to finish also because of the insane load homework (at least compared to last year). if i don't update by next year (meaning jan '09), hereby declare me dead.

i don't have time for this anymore.